In an honest new interview on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, the actor revealed how the film reflects his personal journey—particularly with regard to his fluctuating weight.
“I became famous in my late teens and then spent most of my young adult life listening to people say that I was fat and gross and unattractive,” Hill told DeGeneres.
“And it’s only in the last four years writing and directing my movie, Mid90s, that I’ve started to understand how much that hurt and got into my head."
Hill read words that were written in Inner Children, a self-published magazine he released in conjunction with the premiere of Mid90s that features interviews with Eddie Falco, Michael Cera and his sister, Lady Bird star Beanie Feldstein.
"I really believe everyone has a snapshot of themselves from a time when they were young that they’re ashamed of," Hill continued.
"For me, it’s that 14-year-old overweight and unattractive kid who felt ugly to the world, who listened to hip-hop and who wanted so badly to be accepted by this community of skaters.”
Hill added that he hasn't fully come into his own until now.
“It took a long time ― honestly, until right now ― for me to come out as the person, artist, mind, what I represent, how I feel, how I’d like to be spoken to, how I speak to the world in a way that actually represents who I am as a person as opposed to me trying to be something else that I’m not. I’m under construction like we all are.”